SayingGoodbye.Friends.Family.Plants.Work.

Saying Goodbye.

Saturday morning I did what I should´ve done so much earlier. And I only did because I was forced in a certain way. I said goodbye to my ex´s parents. Because it was his mom´s birthday and there was no way to avoid at least calling her. But as I recognized myself postponing this day on and on, I worked up the courage to go there. Finally. And it was a good decision. It was the last final thing to do to let go this part of my life. And of course saying goodbye hurts. It shows what you´ve lost. But I´m ready to go on with my life. I´m ok.

Friends.

Saturday noon I met a friend to go to a flea market of the local rotary club. It takes place once a year and it seems like everyone in town is just mad for bargain hunting that day. But to be honest: Lots of trash. We bought some cookbooks and I found that little frame from the pic above. Guess I will try to make some DIY-project. Probably this lace earring frame I´ve seen over at Emily from The Freckled Fox.
I really enjoyed the time with my friend, we went out for Sushi afterwards, did a walk with the dogs and just talked for hours. He was working 500km away for the last year and just came back, so we had to regain lost time.

Family.

Saturday evening I visited my aunt. Some monthly get together with other friends of her. We´re really close, so I could tell when she opened the door that something was wrong. Strange thing, ´cause I can´t remember seeing her like that ever. She got a result from a preventive breast cancer check-up that morning and they need to make further medical examinations to find out if something´s wrong. And though I know that it might be nothing serious or nothing at all, I´m worried to death. I just can´t stop it. 

Plants.

Sunday I finally managed repotting Aaron´s plants, finding the right places for them at my place. Hope they don´t mind irregular watering times, because unfortunately it happens that I´ll forget about it for three weeks. You can guess that I´m the biggest fan of Seramis granulate :)

Work.

Sunday evening. No chill-out movie watching for me, three files are still waiting to be read and dealt with. But therefore I´ll finish this working week on Wednesday evening and spend some days with friends in Berlin. I´m sooo looking forward to that days!

xoxo,
Bridy

Friday´s letters

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Dear much needed sleep, I can´t wait. After working half the night yesterday and getting no break today I´m really looking forward to curl up on the sofa, covered by several blankets, with a big cup of tea and my dog warming my feet. I´m note sure if I´ll see more than five minutes of the movie I picked out, but anyways that´s my perfect Friday evening this week.

Dear friends, I´m still overwhelmed by your support. And I´m feeling bad, because I must be the worst friend ever for the last years. No matter how long it´s been since we talked for the last time or even if we´re not close at all, all of you send so many beautiful and caring messages, take me out for dinner, spend time with me and show me that I´m important to you. Thanks again!

Dear apricot, you´re definitely my favourite spring color!

Dear weekend, you promise two days of meeting friends & family, fun activities and sun! Glad you´re finally here!

Dear fostered plants, I hope you like your new home. Don´t you ever dare to wither or get yellow leafs! I want to give you back in good shape someday.

xoxo,
Bridy


 

Findings during office break...

I´m sure you all know that time in office when you get too easily distracted and find yourself strolling through the internet? This is what I did an hour ago and I found such a cute ring I´m totally addicted to it:

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The first five lines of an Elizabeth Barret Browning sonnet are engraved. As it´s a Germany shopping website it´s the German translation of the sonnet by the famous poet Rainer Maria Rilke.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

I better get back to work now :) 

xoxo,

Bridy

Travel Tuesday - Dublin

It´s Travel Tuesday over at Helene In Between and I spontaneously decided to share some pictures of Dublin with you. It´s still one of my favourite travel destinations (though it´s always in competiton with Edinburgh).

back in 2007... I looked soo young that time...

That week - Part 3 - Love?

Love hits you when you least expect it.
When you´re barefooted and unprepared.
Love grabs you and sucks you in.
Love challenges you more than you think you can take.
It twists you around until you can hardly breathe.
Love forces you to choose heart over mind.
Love hits you and you´ve got just to fall.
You have to trust that you will be gently catched up by that one whose heart is beating for you.
If love treats you good it will come up all right in the end.

That week - Part 2 - a unique weekend getaway

 Either way I had to leave town for 3 days to go for my studies. On the one hand this was just the worst timing ever. I´m going there once a month and this has to be exactly in that week?? That´s just not fair. On the other hand this was the only week in over a year where classes finished at Saturday noon instead of Saturday evening. It´s that one exception in my master´s programme that gave me the chance of being home on Saturday evening. With Aaron´s flat all empty and still lots of things to cope with, we set out for our own weekend romance and booked a nice hotel in our town.

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We had a nice stay in that beautiful hotel, I wish I´d had more time and my camera with me.Aaron created that tiny adorable mini bar outside the window. Blame me for the bad pic :)

Will tell you more about my outfit for Sat night in a what-I-wore-post soon :)

xoxo,
Bridy

That week - Part 1 - Lunch can´t hurt...

 

Usually when I sit here - at the other side of the weekend - I just don´t know what to tell, because everything seems just so ordinary in my life. I´m just like every other girl, you know? But the whole last week was one unexpected rollercoaster drive. I never thought that something like that would happen to me. Nor have I ever thought that this could happen to anyone.

If you´re following my blog you know that I had a date Tuesday last week with some guy I met at an online dating site - which took place exactly the time I´m writing this seven days ago. And when I think about that fact I can hardly believe this was just a week ago, because sometimes it feels like it´s been a month since then, sometimes it feels like it´s just a dream that never happened. But no way this was just one week ago...

You know I asked Aaron out for a date, because the time we were texting I had that special feeling about him. It´s something you can´t describe, let´s call it intuition. He was totally caught off guard by me asking him out. And I was surprised by myself that I did. I haven´t been out for a date for years and well, you know... usually the woman get´s asked out. It´s a bit strange to ask a guy for a date.

We met for lunch (and a coffee...and a walk...and another coffee) and I felt so comfortable around him. Then he told me he´d be leaving Germany in a week and go back to the States. He though dated me because he thought lunch can´t hurt. I mean that was... unexpected. Upsetting unexpected. How likely is it that you meet a guy you´ve been texting with for just two days and who turns out matching to you in so many ways? I don´t wanted it to end so shortly after it started. That was just not fair.

I thought with Aaron leaving so soon we wouldn´t see each other again. But life had other plans. The set of our second date was me picking up pizza, going to his flat, watching a movie with him while the movers where packing in all of his things around us. We spent the whole day together, getting closer to each other though we knew there would be a deadline to this soon. That night I left with such a mingled feeling. Should I listen to what my mind was telling me what is smart?  - Run as fast as you can and stay away, you just get hurt! Or should I listen to what my heart was telling me and what I was about to do anyway? And would I be able to let go all fears and all worries in that short time? I mean that first days of dating and get to know each other should be unburdened, light-hearted and easy-going. And part of our days were perfectly like that. But we had to face so many serious things as well. We had one week to find out what we wanted. What all of this unexpected coincidences were leading us to. We were forced to be open-hearted so soon and maybe this just made that thin bond between us stronger.