I know I wasn´t blogging for months now, life is just one crazy thing. Sometimes you look back and notice, that nothing special happened the last months. I mean, of course you celebrated birthdays, went out, met your friends, but it was just your everyday life going on. Not that this would be bad, not at all.
My life was pretty much like this the last years. Settled in, planned. Today is the best reminder, that many many things can change in half a year. Life can turn from precisely planned to having no plan at all, from feeling save to loosing your mind, from knowing what you definitely don´t want to doing exactly those things.
I´d never have believed if somebody told me back on New Year´s Day about all the things that happened since. I never thought the last six months could be so filled up with life, may it be the good or the bad days.
And therefore, this first new entry is for you, my darling...
Dear Aaron,
half a year ago a car stopped and - apart from everything a girl is taught by her mother from the cradle - I jumped in. You changed my life from the very first second and I´m blessed and thankful that you´re by my side. I hate the seperation we have to go through and sometimes it feels unbearable to miss you just one more day, knowing that it will be 365 days more to miss you. But there are those moments where I find myself thinking about you and starting to smile, just because my heart knows you´re somewhere out there. Even from a 5000 miles distance you can send me those perfect moments, no matter what´s happening around. Thank you for being my anchor in every storm and loving me on days I wasn´t very lovable. I wish I could give you just one kiss today... I love you.
